On March 23, my poor Toby boy bashed his foot on the fence. He needed 5 stitches and 6 layers of bandages changed daily. To my sad discovery on Monday April 1, his stitches had come out. The vet recommended putting a cast on his foot because the laceration is located on a high flex point, just below the fetlock. So on Thursday, two vets put a cast around his hoof, up to the fetlock. I moved him to the barn across the street where he can live in an indoor stall and stay dry.
He has been doing really well by staying calm and being patient. He is almost 7 years old and he has been confined for over 2 weeks now. The hope is that the cast will keep the laceration closed so it will heal faster. He will still need bandaging after the cast comes off next week. In the meantime, he is getting super pep talks from me and groomed daily. We are enjoying a new way to bond.
Here are some pictures of the cast going on, as it is not something you see everyday.
I am learning about the Power of Eight and I have joined a healing group. It is based on the book by Lynne McTaggart. She was an investigative journalist who came across the powerful effects of setting an intention. She has written a few books and the most recent is the Power of Eight. Our group meets to put into action the findings of her book. The premise is that we can reach a high level of meditation very quickly when we meditate together in a group with a specific intention. Our group tends to focus on healing our group members who are present or family members remotely.
I was fortunate to receive a healing yesterday for PMS. I have been struggling with fatigue, bloating and irritability for 2 weeks of every month for over 4 years. If I drink Chinese medical herbs and liver cleansing tea the symptoms will diminish but they are still present. We have numerous reports of healings being very successful in the group. So if I can end my PMS with a half hour healing I am very willing to give it a try.
The group felt the meditation was a beautiful experience as we were in strong coherence with each other. I felt very uplifted during the meditation and after. During the meditation I saw all of our hearts connected by a string of white light. As I sat in the centre, I slowly felt light and heavy at the same time. Then the fatigue and heavy energy started to drip out of me and onto the floor. It was black and sticky like tar. I then saw myself in a golden bubble of light and the healing forces of my group members were lighting up the bubble and zapping my body like lightening bolts. I was then a younger version of myself having a shower to cleanse away the bloating and irritability. My energy was abundant. Many of the group members reported similar visuals when they shared their experience. This is powerful stuff!
The last few weeks I have been having so much fun jumping Toby in the field. In this clip, I am working on keeping the canter collected so he has a good approach to the jump. I tend to get nervous and squeeze with my legs. This makes Toby go faster so his canter is longer and more strung out. He then has a hard time clearing the jump. By doing rhythmical half halts and having loose legs, I am keeping his canter packaged so he has lots of spring in his step and he can clear the jumps easily.
Yesterday was a very exciting day. My husband and I have been enjoying date night on Friday nights. We have been frequenting Mike's Pub in the Hume Hotel. The Hume Hotel is a historic site in Nelson. Due to this age old history, the hotel has a reputation for being "haunted."
My husband and I were sitting at a table (on the right of the closest red post) near the billiards table enjoying our dinner. We were both facing the pool table so we could watch the game. Then something caught my eye. It looked like the eight ball was hit off the table. I followed it with my eye to watch where it would land. It curved down under the table where a nearby couple was sitting. I lost sight of it, so I looked to the men who were playing with the expectation that they would fetch the ball. But they didn't. So I said to my husband "I just saw the weirdest thing, a ball went flying off the table to the left." He asked "Was it white?" I said: "It had a little bit of white on it, like a white butterfly surrounded by black bubble, it looked like the eight ball but out of focus." He said " I saw a white ball fly off the table to the right." I was gobsmacked! We saw two different balls fly off the table at the same time!
I asked if he thought it was someone playing with a flashlight. He thought not because the quality of the light was in the middle of the room rather than against the wall or floor. So it seems we both witnessed an apparition of sorts, an eight ball apparition and a cue ball apparition. It is exciting that we both witnessed this phenomenon for the first time in our lives, together.
The Autumn days in the Kootenays have been glorious! The day began with an 8 ton hay delivery. Thankfully there were 5 us helping to unload so we did it under 2 hours. The chaff went to the boys. As you can see Toby enjoyed using the hay as a bed. He laid himself down while snacking and I couldn't resist cuddling with him. We had a super fun lesson today in the cross-country field. It has been a couple of months since Toby has been in the big open space. He was really good, just a little resistant to slow down after a jump at times. Enjoy the photos and the brilliant colors.
Now that the busyness of summer has past I finally have time to write again. I had a great summer with the horses. We did clinics, camps and a local show. We did dressage, jumping and obstacles. All in all, we learned a lot, grew together and had a really fun time. Here are some pictures of our adventures.
I just completed a really interesting class on "Death and Dying: Encountering The Bardos" at Kootenay Shambhala Centre. For our last class we shared stories of our experiences on Death and Grief. I have a very big story on that topic because I was orphaned at a young age.
When I was nine years old my father died. He was flying a glider as a hobby for many years. This is a plane with a very long wing span and no propeller. A propeller plane is connected to the glider with a very long cable and tows the glider up into the air. When the glider is high enough to sore the pilot releases the cable and enjoys doing circles soaring through the air like a bird. I used to go with my father on these soaring adventures and it was very dreamy.
However, on this Friday afternoon a malfunction happened. While he was getting towed the cable released too early. He was not high enough to soar and not low enough to make an adequate landing. He flew through two houses narrowly missing them but impacted on the edge of a curb. The sudden impact caused his death.
I felt my father die. I remember very clearly writing a math test and intently looking down at my work. All of sudden the wind was knocked out of me. I took a big breath and looked up at the clock. It was 3:55 the same time my dad died.
Life was very difficult for my mother afterwards. With three kids and a host of other problems she died 2 years later of a heart attack. Oddly, she died on my borther's 9th birthday. I was 11 years old.
I didn't feel my mother die but I had a premonition that she would die of a heart of attack. In this dream, my father was there, as well as the priest who led his funeral. I saw my mother go up into a large catacomb sort of building. She was having a medical procedure done on her hear and unfortunately the procedure went wrong.
This is a tragic story. It was a very sad time for me and I am still recovering from abandonment issues. But children are very resilient and live in the present. Life carried on. The dog still needed to be walked, I still went to school and saw my friends. There were many good things to look forward to in the day.
This is my point in sharing this story. There were gifts that came from this tragedy. For one, I learned my own resilience and built a very strong character. Secondly, I met Stefano (my husband) when we moved to Vancouver in 1986. Although we lost touch for 20 years after, we created a childhood bond that is still with us today. Thirdly, I am very in touch with the spirit world, which greatly informs my work as an animal communicator.
Although there are many adversities in life there are also many gifts. The harder we fall the taller we stand back up again. I really believe there is always a silver lining around the dark cloud.
I am taking a very interesting class "Death and Dying, Encountering the Bardos" at the Kootenay Shambhala Centre. We are learning about dealing with pain and loss and watching the NFB documentary "The Tibetan Book of the Dead." It is very fascinating to learn the Buddhist perspective on the afterlife.
I was reintroduced to the practice of Tong Len. This is where you breath in the suffering of others. It can range from a close friend to a world wide problem. Then you breath out the resolution you would like for the suffering. For example, I am very troubled by the cruelty imposed on factory farm animals. So I imagine pigs crammed in small cages and breath it in. Then I image the cages opening and the pigs running free in a grassy meadow while breathing out. By connecting yourself to the pain of others you are also healing your own suffering. The well respected Pema Chodron gives a detailed description on how to do this practice. I think it will be very helpful for those with animals that are at end of life and who have passed.
How to Practice Tonglenby Pema Chödrön| November 9, 2017
Pema Chödrön teaches us “sending and taking,” an ancient Buddhist practice to awaken compassion. With each in-breath, we take in others’ pain. With each out-breath, we send them relief.Illustration by Carole Henaff.
Tonglen practice, also known as “taking and sending,” reverses our usual logic of avoiding suffering and seeking pleasure. In tonglen practice, we visualize taking in the pain of others with every in-breath and sending out whatever will benefit them on the out-breath. In the process, we become liberated from age- old patterns of selfishness. We begin to feel love for both ourselves and others; we begin to take care of ourselves and others.
Tonglen awakens our compassion and introduces us to a far bigger view of reality. It introduces us to the unlimited spaciousness of shunyata (emptiness). By doing the practice, we begin to connect with the open dimension of our being.
Tonglen can be done for those who are ill, those who are dying or have died, or those who are in pain of any kind. It can be done as a formal meditation practice or right on the spot at any time. If we are out walking and we see someone in pain, we can breathe in that person’s pain and send out relief to them.
Breathe in for all of us and breathe out for all of us. Use what seems like poison as medicine.Usually, we look away when we see someone suffering. Their pain brings up our fear or anger; it brings up our resistance and confusion. So we can also do tonglen for all the people just like ourselves—all those who wish to be compassionate but instead are afraid, who wish to be brave but instead are cowardly. Rather than beating ourselves up, we can use our personal stuckness as a stepping stone to understanding what people are up against all over the world. Breathe in for all of us and breathe out for all of us. Use what seems like poison as medicine. We can use our personal suffering as the path to compassion for all beings.
When you do tonglen as a formal meditation practice, it has four stages:
1. Flash on Bodhichitta. Rest your mind for a second or two in a state of openness or stillness. This stage is traditionally called flashing on absolute bodhichitta, awakened heart-mind, or opening to basic spaciousness and clarity.
2. Begin the Visualization. Work with texture. Breathe in feelings of heat, darkness, and heaviness—a sense of claustrophobia—and breathe out feelings of coolness, brightness, and light—a sense of freshness. Breathe in completely, taking in negative energy through all the pores of your body. When you breathe out, radiate positive energy completely, through all the pores of your body. Do this until your visualization is synchronized with your in- and out-breaths.
3. Focus on a Personal Situation. Focus on any painful situation that’s real to you. Traditionally you begin by doing tonglen for someone you care about and wish to help. However, if you are stuck, you can do the practice for the pain you are feeling yourself, and simultaneously for all those who feel the same kind of suffering. For instance, if you are feeling inadequate, breathe that in for yourself and all the others in the same boat and send out confidence, adequacy, and relief in any form you wish.
4. Expand Your Compassion. Finally, make the taking in and sending out bigger. If you are doing tonglen for someone you love, extend it out to all those who are in the same situation. If you are doing tonglen for someone you see on television or on the street, do it for all the others in the same boat. Make it bigger than just that one person. You can do tonglen for people you consider to be your enemies—those who hurt you or hurt others. Do tonglen for them, thinking of them as having the same confusion and stuckness as your friend or yourself. Breathe in their pain and send them relief.
Tonglen can extend infinitely. As you do the practice, your compassion naturally expands over time, and so does your realization that things are not as solid as you thought, which is a glimpse of emptiness. As you do this practice, gradually at your own pace, you will be surprised to find yourself more and more able to be there for others, even in what used to seem like impossible situations.
About Pema ChödrönWith her powerful teachings, bestselling books, and retreats attended by thousands, Pema Chödrön is today’s most popular American-born teacher of Buddhism. In The Wisdom of No Escape, The Places that Scare You, and other important books, she has helped us discover how difficulty and uncertainty can be opportunities for awakening. She serves as resident teacher at Gampo Abbey Monastery in Nova Scotia and is a student of Dzigar Kongtrul, Sakyong Mipham Rinpoche, and the late Chögyam Trungpa. For more, visit pemachodronfoundation.org.
I recently learned the technique of Ho'oponopono. It is a very simple spiritual technique that can be used to clear away bad energy. It's like creating a clean slate. It is so easy to do and I have been enjoying doing it. It involves saying 4 sentences: "I'm sorry. Please forgive me. Thank you. I love you." If you are experiencing difficulty with a person in your life, try visualizing them and saying the phrase. I think you'll notice the energy shift for the better. I am now recommending my clients use Ho'oponopono with their animals such as behavioral challenges, lost animals and deceased animals. Let me know what you observe... For more information: https://www.laughteronlineuniversity.com/practice-hooponopono-four-simple-steps/
I am excited to report that I took the Vow of Refuge yesterday. This means I am officially Buddhist. I even got a Refuge name: Patient Dharma Joy. I think that sums me up pretty well. This vow would be open to anyone who has come to the conclusion that the Buddhist path is the way forward for them. In this vow, first, one takes “refuge” in the Buddha, who embodies wakefulness. One then takes refuge in the dharma, the teachings as they have been passed down, and then the sangha, one’s fellow travelers on the path. Trungpa Rinpoche commented that the term “refuge” here is more in the sense of becoming a “refugee” as opposed to finding a refuge in security. He described a refugee as someone who leaves behind the certainties of solidified existence. In doing this, they embark on a journey without fixed reference points, just working with their experience as it unfolds.
I had the opportunity to work with Acharya Susan Chapman again. She offered the Rigden week-end in Edmonton that I participated in about 5 months ago. She is truly an enlightened being. She has come to our Shambhala Centre in Nelson for about 10 days this month. So, I was the coordinator for the Rigden week-end last week. It was quite the whirlwind to have only been a participant a few months ago to being the organizer. But it was an honour to serve the Acharya and my community members. Ironically, we discovered that we had the same horse back riding coach in Vancouver with a 20 year gap! She had her last lesson in 1966 and I rode with this instructor from 1986-87 when I was about 11 years old. I notice that these syncronities happen offen when I meditate. I think it is the universe telling me I am on the right path.
I have been a Professional Animal Communicator since January 2016. I have been an animal lover and admirer for a very, very long time.